sore loser

ok so its so funny how as an adult I am still a sore loser. We played our last softball game yesterday and I wanted to win so bad. I woke up nervous because I wanted to win so bad. The team we were playing has won the last few years and we have never made it this far. We were down the whole game and then we scored like four homeruns. IT WAS GREAT!!! We were tied top of the seventh ten-ten. They scored for runs that inning. It was our turn up to bat and we could only pull one run and then it was over. I wanted it to bad. I do have to say though I actually hit the ball everytime I got up, and they went farthe then ever before. I was so excited. Next year though I am so excited I can't wait for it to start.

Well I have four days left of summer school and then a week off and then I start school!! I am so excited. It;s real. I mean it is the moment I have been waiting for, forever!!! I have doing alot of planning and geting things ready to laminate and stuff. I just went online and requested alot of first day books to read so the children aren't so nervous. I can't wait to start!!! I am so excited now!!

Well we went to the house and they have the siding all on and then we walk through and then amonth it will be done. I can't wait!! Last night we picked our paint colors so that we are ready for the first day!!! Keep the calender open mid september we will need as many painters as we can get!!!

when it rains it pours

Ok so Matt didn't know what he wanted for his birthday but now he does: a new tooth for me and a new alternator for his car. What a lousy birthday and I feel horrible, but I need a tooth and he needs a car. I feel horrible as a wife that I can't provide a good birthday for him. I really wanted to do something special but I can't. I know that its not about the money so maybe I can make somthing good for him to eat and have a nice evening. It just sucks. I hate the fact that we have to take this stupid money and put it towards a car and a tooth. As my mother always says "thats life.." I think that is her motto.

Well on a lighter note, Jodi bought her weding dress. That means its real!! WE have a wedding to go to in July!! I am so excited for her!!

Well I am starting to feel better about school. I have taken some of the pressure off my shoulders and I know that I am not expected to be perfect. I am not expected to teach everything there is and do it perfect. I need to know that I am a good teacher though and that is all I hope for.

look what they did!!

They bricked it!! The fun part though is that when we took this it was 6 in the evening which means they have worked all day!! I am so excited!!!

Met our new neighbor!!

Well we went by the house yesterday and we met our new neighbor!! It was really great because he was this sweet old man. He just welcomed us in and was so sweet. He gave us a tour of his house and found out we were Christian and that got him excited. He said we need to evangilize this neighborhood, and if Matt and I were starting a bible study to give him and his wife a call!! It was really sweet. I can tell this is going to be the neighbor you can rely on and if you need anything they will be there. I can see him keep a watch out for our house and make sure no one is doing anything wrong. I am really excited because it makes me feel good that a neighbor is nice.

Well I feel alot better about next year. I have started making my math centers so I wont have to spend so much time the beg of August. I went today and rearranged my room so that I got the big stuff moved now comes the desks. I really want to be able to move them around and make sure they are in the best spot.

Well we are experiencing our first friend loss. Emily and Joel are two people that took Matt and I under their wing and introduced us to the church we attend. They took us to Sunday school and and to all the functions. We will miss them alot! The fun part though is they are moving to Charleston so we are going to go and visit them which is going to be GREAT!!!

stressed out...

Ok so last night was my first break down about teaching. I am so confident about teaching but yet I am so scared. I am so scared I am going to screw up. I honestly don't know what I am doing. I feel like I am just a darn good actress. I put on a good show, like I know what I am doing. It is really something I am so scared about. I feel like under all this show I have no idea what I am doing and I keep telling myself I will try it again and then screw up again. To some people this wont make sense, and honestly it makes no sense to me, but I just keep thinking that I am so darn scared about the first month of school. I think I wont feel ok till January because that is when I started and I have a good feeling about those months. I keep telling myself that this is the way that I felt the first day of my floating position. Ok so this post really has no meaning but I needed to write it to get my mind off of it. I was up all night stewing about this stupid feeling but now I am getting better. THANKS!! :)

2nd Annual Mens Cake Bake Off

Ok so at our church we have a social each month. Then month is the second annual mens cake bake off. That means that us wives can't help in any way shape or form. This is really hard for me because I always want to help him when he is in the kitchen. So I had to leave. I went to the pool while he attempted to bake a cake. Now you are being judged on appearance and taste. You could use a box cake if you want but you have to make a cake. This is what came out.
Didn't he do a good job!! He thought of the idea all by himself, and even added the oreos on the platter!!****Update...Well he got second place for taste. The cake was actually really good tasting. It was really moist and choclaty. The winner of looks was a cake that was in the shape of a start and had strawberries and blueberries. The other cakses were a toilette, packman, another Oreo, and a carrot. They all really tasted well. It was alot of fun!!!

second floor

The picture with with the blue thing is where our bathtub is going. The picture with matt in it is our master bedroom. The other picture is the master from the other side, and the last pic is with the porch on the front and the windows. If you look carfully in the garage there is our bathtubs and showers!!!

The shell is DONE!!!

Here are the pics of the house.The frame is all done.

THE FIRST FLOOR IS DONE!!

Ok so here is an update on the house. The first floor is built. The second one is in the front yard waiting to be put up. Hopefully by friday the roof will be on!!
This one on the top left is the dining room. The one on the top right is the kitchen. THe one on the bottom left is the family room. The one on the right is the front of the house.

Happy weekend!!

Ok so my inlaws just left and I have to say that I really enjoyed having them there. I loved having them up here. For once I really felt like this was the place we were meant to be. They came up just for the day to go to church and see the house. I couldn't believe they would do this, you ask why. Well my mother on the other hand comes to Raleigh every weekend almost, and it took her a five months to actually come over to see the house. Our two families are so different. His parents are so loving and caring, not that mine isn't, but mine shows their love in such different ways.

We also ordered wedding pictures today!!!!! A year and almost two months we finally ordered some bigger ones then 4x6's. I am so excited because I can vision them in our house. It is weird how such simple things make me smile. I can't wait to frame them and have them on the walls. We got an 11x14 of us in front of the church. That one will probably go in the bedroom.

Well I have a week left of endless pool time. I am excited but I am glad that after that week I will have something to do. Since there aren't that many people that can come over I have no one to hang out with, and I have no money so that leaves the pool. I do have a tan though, so that is exciting.

Ok so as a teacher you know I am broke. Well yesterday I went on Amazon.com and found thirty books for my science units that I need. I went to that conference last week and they gave us great ideas to supplement. Well the total cost which I think is great is 93.00. Well to us that is alot of money, so my plan was to send out a letter to my family to ask for donations to the Whisenant first year book fund. OK so that sounds really tacky but don't think for a moment that it didn't cross my mind. I really need these books and yes the library has them but it is such a hassle to check them out. I really just want to organize them so when I am ready to teach the kit I can pull out all the things that go along with it. So just know that even though teachers have summers off, we are BROKE and need supplies. :)

Ok so on a sadder note, I was watching TV last night and it was very thought provoking for me as a teacher. The short short version is that there was a man that had a son who would bring friends over to his house to play and go to the pool. Then one day the police showed up at his door and arrested him for child molested. Now from that moment the man said he was innocent. Well then two days later the police arrested another man and his gf for the same charges, but the two children this time were her children. Then a day later another man was arrested for molesting his daughter. Now there were four people in jail for molested charges. Their were four children that stated they had been molested. The four adults went to jail. They spent eight years before the lawyers found mis-evidence in the woman and her bf case, so they were let free. The other man who was accused of molesting his daughter was also set free for not sharing of evidence. That left the first man still in jail. Now he has always said from the beginning that he never did these things. Twelve years later, those four children came out and said that these people NEVER did anything to them. They said that the police told them to say these things because they knew it happened and that if they did then the would get to go home. Now the children at age five and six would say those things so it would all end and go home. Anyway as you see the first man then goes back to court to be told that he is set free for the fact that these people said he never did it. After twenty years in prison hes set free. Three years after he is free he goes back to court to be paid 100 dollars for every day he spent in prison since he was wrongfully accused.

Now the reason I wrote all that is because in this day and age it is scary for a teacher. I am the type of teacher that doesn't worry about these things but its hard after watching this. IF you ever had a parent that hated you and had their children convince that you did something you didn't. It worries me because I want my children to know I love them but I don't want to get to close you know. Anyway it made my mind race last night as I watched it. I know that there was a conspiracy with this case but still you know how children can be. Ohwell that was alot for a little, but that was what was running through my mind. Sorry if it was confusing, I get on these subjects and I can't stop.