5 little secrets...

Here are 5 little secrets you may not know about me...beware...it may change your oppinion of me :)

1. I am super morbid in my own head. Many times a day I have morbid thoughts of "what ifs"...for example I think about...What if I was shot in the head, how would people react...or my favorite is when I take a shower I go through a dramtic scene in my head where someone breaks into the house and shoots me while in the shower, I would play dead till they left and crawl out to my cell phone and call the police. I literally place this scene in my head EVERY time I get into the shower..somedays with variations...I guess this stems from my need to be prepared....sick I know!

2. I get really nervous thinking about getting in trouble. For example, when I go into stores I purposlfully empty my purse in the car except my wallat because I have this fear that if I had something in my purse like chapstick or a pen that you could by from the story someone might think I am shoplifting. I am not sure where this one comes from, but at least my arm doesn't hurt when I am walking around shopping.

3. I constanlty worry about people judging me and talking about me. I try to act confident but when I am left out or think I walked into a conversation that was about me...I get really quiet and sad. I am really insecure inside and sometimes it is hard for me to belive someone if they say they weren't talking about me. I have always had trouble being confident...I also don't take compliments well.

4. I love to travel but flying makes me sweat gallons (since I already sweat a lot...gallons is WAY a lot)...when I fly I have to drink or take something...but I always love the destinations!

5. I am sad that Matt and I don't have a church to baptise Tillman in. I don't think Matt knows how important this is for me because for him and his family, baptising isn't looked upon the same way. I really wish that we could get Tillman baptised.

Well now that you know little dirty secrets about me...how about you!

Num Nums

Before I became a mom I always thought I would never be one of those moms....you know the ones that have cute little names for things such a pee pee for you know what. I was dead set on calling things by their proper names. I never wanted Tilley to grow up not understanding the world around him. Well when Tillman was born all those "before I had a baby" thoughts starte to surface. Started making cute little noises to him and calling things cute little names. It is amazing how when you look at a little one you just automatically start calling things by weird names. Well one of those instances is with food. Now that Tilley is easting TONS of food, it is often that I tell him that we are going to go eat. Instead of teaching my son the proper name like breakfast, lunch, dinner or snack...I call it num nums....my poor son is going to have a complex....see for yourself!

You know your a mom when...

It is funny how many times I week I think about this post....I always try and remember all the funny odd things I do as a mother and then when I get time to sit and type my brain disappears..Here are a few that I could remember!! Please chime in on my comments if you can add anything!

You know your a mom when in order for you to get your daily dose of veggies, you give the baby a spoonful...then yourself a spoonful...then the baby a spoobful...by the end of the dinner feeding you both have had your daily dose of veggies

You know your a mom when you shave your legs and there looks like a chiuaha was just shaved in the bottom of your shower....oh wait when do I have time to shave!!

You know your a mom when you purposfully keep a scarf in all cars because you know at some point in your day snot or spit up will end up on the shoulder of your shirt....a scarf does the trick

You know your a mom when your out in public and you hear a baby cry and you start running though the rolledex in your brain of all the things it could possibly be...then you bend over and realize your sweet baby is asleep

You know your a mom when in moments of thought you break out into wheels on the bus to help clear your mind....

You know your a mom when you open a diaper and say YES after a long night of constipation!!!

You know your a mom when you stick your pinkie finger up a babies nose and then inspect your find to ensure no one is gettig sick without even blinking an eye!

You know your a mom when you start playing rock paper scissors to see who will get up at 3 am when the baby is teething...it really is the only FAIR way

Even though some of these are dumb they are all true...so please if your a mom add yours!! I know there are a million more, but as a watch my sweet boy eat his puffs all I can think about is how amazing this job is!!