SO EXCITED!!!!!

Ok so today I found out that I am going to be teaching this summer!! That is GREAT news because that means I will make money and still have time off. I really needed this job because I didn't want to get some small job because I would have to work alot more. I was worried though because I didn't want to get upset if I didn't get a job because I know in Gods plan he knew how he was going to take care of us. For once in my life I thought about him and not me. I really thought that if he wanted me to teach then he will make it so.

Well the other great part is that I think I might teach the upcoming third graders I think. He said something about third graders but I don't know if he meant the upcoming third graders or the rising third graders going to fourth. I am so not sure. I REALLY want the upcoming third graders because that would sort of maybe mean that he wants me in third grade. I don't know. The person though in charge of the numbers said there wont be enough so maybe he meant the rising fourth graders. I don;t know. I really want to teach third grade next year and if I am teaching summer school for the rising third graders then maybe he would keep me there.

This is the hard part about teaching. I don't want him to think I am being stingy but I really want to teach third. being in fifht has shown me that it would be alot of fun but right now in my life I need to learn the ropes a little more and with the kids now at our school its hard. I really think it would be better next year so that is good, but I don't know. I hope he really thinks about what I wants and that I would fit there.

Well today they said our house will be done the end of august which is what I thought, but it makes me mad because I want the darn thing done. Means more money for us because that gives us a complete month of mroe money, and our first mortgage payment wont be due till september which is great. I just want out of the stupid small apartment. Its so cramped. They are also taking alot of money for us to live here those extra months. They ask for two hundred dollars more each month if you stay month to month. Ohwell. that is life I guess.

We are going to the beach in a few weeks which is GREAT!!! I can't wait!! I want to get out of RALEIGH SO BAD!!!!

Fifth grade..

Well I started my first fifth grade teaching assignment. So I knew it was going to be hard. There was NO doubt in my mind that I was going to be stressed out and worry about how well I was doing my job. The hardest part is one student. Which you may sit here and think only one. Yes, only one. I am a teacher and there is one student who rules this school, and he is in my class.

So I knew taking on this class he was in there. I was worried about how he would treat me, im not worried anymore. Him and I are buds. He treats me fine. Now with the other kids his horried. I mean down right MEAN. I think he is the biggest bully I know. I have never seen a child get so angry so quickly in my life.

So as a teacher my job is to teach and protect ALL my students. I am not able to fullfill that because of him. He just flies off the handle and I can't stop him. Hes like a tornado. He goes strong, dies down a little, then gets bigger. I mean I just have no control over him. The other students are TERRIFIED!!! They all put their heads down and walk on the other side of the hall because of him and HE KNOWS IT!!

So fridy was an amazing day, because he spent the day in the office, and then at the end of the day he was working with the janitor and got into a fight. I hope that he wont be there next week, but I am not sure with our school. You never know with them. THey want to get rid of him, but they are scared of him as well. I really can't imagine another kid like him. The excuse though, is thats him. They can't stop him. I really love my class and I have only been in there two days. Without him we get so much done. WE played games, and we had fun without it ending in a brawl. Teaching is a hard profession. As they get older they are already set in their ways and their parents let them be that way.

The way it looks though is next year, I will be a fifth grade teacher. Hopefully I will prove myself, but you never know. I realy wanted third grade but they are losing people in fifth grade. hopefully I wont be there, but if that is Gods plan then so be it. He has me there for a reason and I have to find tha treason. II just hope I make it these last two weeks.

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! WOW!!!

Well today is our 1 year annv.!!!!! I am so excited. Alot of people don't make it to this point!! I couldn't be happier. Well let me tell you about this weekend. First Matts sister and her fiance came up for chapel hill graduation but before they went we ate lunch and showed them the house. Now you have to understand that Matt and I talked about this weeks ago and since we bought the car we weren't going to do anything. He told me that this wasn't going to be like my bday where he says hes not doing anything but he does. So me being me thinks ok thats fine I got a car and a house that means everything to me so it doesn't matter. We can eat cake and talk about the wedding. So saturday rolls around and Katie and Chris leave to go to his sisters. Matt tells me I should go take a shower, which was weird since I had already taken one. He wouldn't tell me why. Finally he told me that we have dinner reservations that we have to meet. I was STOKED I mean I was so excited. So he drives and tells me it is somewhere inside the beltline. So he plays like he is going to get on the beltline and then swerves off and we end up at the melting pot!! I LOVE THIS PLACE!!! We eat dinner. Well he got me a card which was BEAUTIFUL!! Then he says he got me another one. I open it and it is a GC to the spa to get a massage. So now I am flabergasted because he went way over!! I mean we weren't going to do anything. The other cool thing was that at the MElting pot they take a picture of you and put it in a frame so that was nice. Then he pulls out another gift. I am still in shock with the first one and dinner I can't talk. Then I open it and I cry because I knew what it was from the box. It was a past present future necklace!!! I couldn't talk!! I have wanted one for so long and he got one for me. He put a picture in the box of our wedding day. HES SO AMAZING!!Then we came home and watched a movie and ate cake!!! I love him so much. While at dinner he went to the bathroom and I just sat there and prayed to our Lord thanking him for all that he has given me. Matt and I wouldn't be here today if it wasnt for our God!! I don't thank our Lord enough for the love he gives me and the man he has sent to take care of me and love me eternally. Life is so amazing!! Being married is what God had planned for me and I couldn't think of doing anything else. I love waking up beside him each morning and know when I fall asleep this man loves me with every part of his being.

going by fast..

Well time is going by so fast. I mean in one week we will have been married for one whole year. Most marrages don't last that long. I am so excited and I have never been happier. I mean we are doing so well. We bought a new car, we found a church, we talk about God, we are building our first home, we both have amazing jobs, and we are both VERY HAPPY!! Could things get better.

I love my job. In about a week I will take over a fifth grade classroom. I can't wait. I went in there yesterday and they asked me all kinds of questions. They wanted to know everything. I thought it was so cute. They really wanted to get to know me and they also wanted to know if I was strict. I can't wait to get in there, because finally I wont be on anyones time except mine. I will be able to make all the decisions. I can't WAIT!!

Katie is getting married in about five weeks. Time is going so fast. I remeber when she got engaged. This is so weird. I just can't imagine next year or when we have kids. Matt and I talked about that and I think we settled on 2007. So that means we will be in the house about a year, and then we will start trying. The only thing is that we have to get pregnant in the month of August or we can't keep trying till the next year because of my job. I have to have the baby right before summer starts since I have to still work. The other thing is finding someone to watch the baby while we work. So we will see!!