What we do for our children!

So this pregnancy started out wonderful. I didn't gain a lot of weight, no stretch marks and I felt cute. 37 weeks and counting and I am so not cute anymore. I have more purple stretch marks from my lower back to behind my knees I can't count them all. I have vericose veins trailing down my bum to behind my knees. My "love handles" have become railings instead of handles. My double chin is starting to petrude past the first chin. I am so not happy with this.

When I went to the doc yesterday he was a little worried about the fact that I keep gaining weight each week. I mean 2-3 pounds a week. If I keep this up I will be 180 before my son gets here! I am so not happy! I really don't feel that I am eating a ton more than before. I think the emotions start to come out when I have to get dressed in the morning and nothing fits. It makes my day start off bad. Today I wanted to take the dog for walk and I couldn't even fit into my husbands bball shorts because I am to damn big!

Well the doc did have good news. I am now 90 percent effaced which is a good sign. Again I can stay like this for three more weeks or I can go into labor tonight. I am hoping for the tonight part because I am ready to pull my eyelashes out at school. I really am done with my children and over them. School is getting harder and harder because I don't have the tolerance I should. I know that I need to calm down or my BP will explode but I am just plain DONE!

I still haven't packed my bag because I have no idea what to put in it and I feel I will get my hopes up for nothing. We are putting the carseat in the car this weekend which is exciting but also a tease because he isn't here yet! I wish I knew when he would come.

Doc said he is kinda turned a funny way. His head is down but his back is facing my left side and his face is facing my right side. So he is kinda sideways which means his shoulders will come out in a very painful way. I am hoping that he shifts a little and gets himself in the right place because I don't know if I can do that. He is also on the bigger weight side so I know he will be a big baby! We shall see!

Phone List A and B

So I am starting the phone list of people that want "the call!" I have two lists. One list is for people that want to be called before he is born. Meaning they want to be called as labor is progressing. This list is also two parts, because there are those that want to be called at any hour of the day and the others that want the phone call to come after sunrise ;)! Then list B is for those who want to be called when he has made is arrival. Below is list A that has people who want the anytime call. If you want to be added to any of the lists please facebook or leave a comment and you will be added to the lists! :) I don't want to leave anyone out but I also don't want to call someone who is in a deep somber and could care less that I am screaming my lungs out in LD. ;)

List A (anytime)

Nancy (if Matt is out of town ;) )
Mom & Tom
Paulette & Dale
Dad & Jenny
Katie & Chris
Becca
James & Kath

All good things come to those who wait....whoever said that wasn't pregnant!

So I hit 37 weeks tommorrow and I am done. I loved the begining part of pregnancy and being pregnant for the first time was a blessing. Right now, I am ready to be ME again. I want to be able to roll over without a grunt, or walk without a wadle, to eat without burping (wait I did that before ;))! I want to be able to not have to pee every three minutes, I want to wear normal clothes again and not feel like a frumpy person in my husbands t-shirts. I want to hold this little guy that is doing leg extentions on my stomach. I want to see his little hands that keeping jabbing my belly button. I want to see the little butt that keeps sticking out of my side. All of these emotions are hard to contain when you are 9 months pregnant. This journey has been amazing and I have been so blessed. As far as pregnancy goes I was a lucky one. I was blessed with such a smooth 9 month ride. All the things that are "annoying" right now are so small compared to what we will have in three short weeks! I think this is the worst wait I have ever had to sit through. I remember when I was 12 and I was kicked by my horse and went to the ER. I had to sit on a stretcher for two hours because the ER was so packed. I remember sitting there thinking that was the LONGEST two hours of my life. I remember thinking that if I ever had to wait that "long" again I would die! I do have to say this past week has trumped that two hour wait. Up to this point the wait hasn't been bad because I wanted him to stay in there to cook. Now I want him out! I want to meet him and I can wish that because we have hit the buzzer! He is finished cooking, now he is just cooling off. This wait is KILLLING ME!! I sit in our recliner while he does kung fu on my insides and I just keep telling him that it would be more fun to be on the outside. I know that these three weeks will go by and when he is ready he will make his debute and all I will write about is how I want to stop time. So I am trying to remind myself that all good things come to those who wait!!!

Birthing Expert

So yesterday we spent the day at Rex at our "preparing for childbirth" class. It was interesting to say the least. No we didn't watch a birth on video like everyone thinks. We just talked about the stages of labor, what positions help relax and reduce the pain, what to expect and took a tour of the labor and delivery ward. It was fun to talk with moms that are in the same boat as you. There were lots of young couples ready and eager like us.

The funniest part was when we were taking our tour, there was a lady in labor about to give birth and she was SCREAMING her lungs off! We all walked by and laughed but got chills at the same time. We knew we would be there in a few weeks and it just made it more real. The nurse walked by and said ignore the sound effects! We all laughed, but when we walked back by her room she was done, so at least it didn't last too long.

Also here is a much anticipated picture of my 36 expanding waist line. I do have to say up to the last few weeks this pregnancy has been amazing! I have really loved every moment and felt good about my body image. That went to hell in the past three weeks. This has been the worst part and as time goes on I get more and more sad because of how my body is changing. Things are happening that I know wont go back. Stretch marks are appearing daily, and the scale keeps rising weekly. My abdomen hurts all the time and my butt is sore from sitting for only a few moments. Being that I have always been someone who hasn't had to worry about being petite, I am now trying hard to get myself prepared for the long journey ahead to get myself back into somewhat of a good shape. I know that I will lose some weight when he is born, but in the mirror I know most of what I am gaining now isn't him by fat on me. :( It all comes with the territory, which I signed on for nine months ago! I know in the end when he is here it will all be worth it and the idea of my body image will hopefully be only a faint dream!

Newborn Photos

So this week my sweet hubby bought me a package for new born photos for our sweet boy. Many people laugh, snicker, roll their eyes a the thought of have a prof. come in and take pictures of a two week old but for me it means the world. I love photos, I am not good at getting them printed but I have thousands in my computer/jumpdrive. Two years ago my sweet husband bought me a nikon camera for my addiction. I really wanted it because I knew when we started to add a little one to the mix we wouldnt want to spend that kind of money. I have researched and researched for the right person and I think I found her. She was running a special which of course helped sway my decision but she also had beautiful photos on her website. I signed the agreement and now we are just waiting. I think I am most excited about getting a family photo to enlarge and put over the stairs. I have wanted one for a few years but Matt wont ever have his picture taken. This is the perfect time. When Tilley gets here I swear I am going to have to buy a brand new computer just to hold all the photos. My house will be filled with frames of his sweet face, toes, fingers, belly and most of all his smile. I can't wait to have him here!! Here web address is http://www.christyjohnson.com/

School Baby Shower

I am so blessed to work at such an amazing place! My team threw me and another teacher a baby shower!! It was so beautiful and so many people came!! I loved having all of our friends around celebrating Tilley and soon arrival!

Little brother is growing up!!

So last weekend I went to ECU to watch the little brother walk across the big stage!! It was so bittersweet because I am so proud of him but I am also so sad how much we have grown up and how our lives are moving forward!! I really love him so much and want everything for him, but keeping him young in my mind makes me feel that time isn't going by so fast!!! I also got to meet his Fiances parent which was so much fun! They are getting married in October so I really wanted to meet them. We had so much fun at dinner and loved chatting about the upcoming event!! Love you two so very much!!

Waiting the arrival of Tilley!!

Here are the pictures of his finished nursery!! Can't wait till he gets here!!

35 weeks and 4 years

So Monday I went into the doctor because I was feeling pressure and pain. I was 1 cm dialated, 60% effaced and he was in -1 stage which means his head was there. She could feel it!! I was excited to hear this but then she made it very clear I could stay this way for six weeks. So here we are waiting for Tilley to get here. I am so tired and I hurt. I hope this is the part of pregnancy that you forget about because I wouldn't want to get pregnant again if I remembered this. :) My abdomen hurts really bad and I feel him sitting down there and I really just want him here. It doesn't help that I can feel him move and know our little guy is right there. I want him to be healthy when he comes so I don't want him to come till he is ready but I want him here so bad. I go back Monday which is exciting! I hope that these contractions that I feel are helping me out some more.

Well today marks our four year annv.! I am so excited because I am married to a very amazing man. He is getting newborn pictures taken of Tilley for our annv. That is what I really wanted so he did good. His parents sent us to dinner on them so that was nice. We are going to our birthing class on Saturday so that is exciting. I really want to put the carseat in the car but it is still a little early. I think in about two weeks we will put it in there.

I hope to take pictures of the nursery this weekend and post them. We have everything ready except for the sweet boy to get here!