Going great!!

Well this week has been a great week! We got rid of the camaro which is a blessing. Tilly could not ride in the camaro because it doesn't fit a carseat so we had to get rid of it some point. We bought Matt a Civic which was really pretty and he was happy with it. Mark my words, this car will be Tilly's first car. It will live that long and our son will be able to drive it. :)

I am feeling really well this week. I guess it has to do with that my husband was in town most of this week and I will be going "home" for a spa weekend with my step mom. I can't wait!! It is much needed and I am so excited to spend the time with her. Tillyman will love it because he loves it when his mommy is happy. :)

I had a great weeked with two of my oldest and dearest friends. They came up and spent the night. We found a babyshower dress and some other cute clothes. We spent time laughing and having fun! It was so nice to see them and I can't wait till the end of March to see them again at the shower they are throwing.

Well I only gained 8 pounds total from the start of this pregnancy. I was worried I had gained a lot more but from what I read it should start packing on in the next few weeks. I just hope I don't get carried away with the eating.

Feeling Good!!

Well after a week like last week I was ready for a good week. This week has been ten times better. It is amazing how things are so different when you feel good and your kiddos are behaving. This week has gone well but I am worried about tomorrow.

I go tomorrow for another checkup and up until this point I haven't really gained any weight. Well the last four weeks I haven't really been all that good about eating healthy. I really have been craving nothing but salt and fried food. Well this morning the scale said 150. Which means I would have gained 8 pounds in four weeks which means I gained 2 pounds each week. I KNOW!! That is insane. I am really worried he is going to say something to me. I know I should stop eating but now I am eating even when I am not hungry. I need to watch it because I was doing so well and now I let myself go. I am going to try and workout and keep things moving so I can stay healthy.

I am really excited about my appointment though because I am going to ask him about my ears and headaches. My ears feel like they are filled to the brim with fluid. I can't seem to get them to pop. My headaches are getting bad and I hate taking medicine because I don't want to hurt Tilly. I know I can take it but I don't like it!! So hopefully he will have some answers for me.

Well Monday starts my countdown for my pregnancy massage that my daddy bought me. I can't wait till Saturday because I get a pedicure and manicure and a massage!! This will be one of the best weekends!! Much needed that is for sure!!

Well we have two of the three showers planned. My husbands side of the family is going to be April 4th. My girlfriends are throwing one on March 28th which is exciting because it will be all my friends from college and highschool. Some I haven't seen in years! I can't wait. The third one we are still trying to find a date that works!! I am so lucky to have such amazing friends and family. The Tillyman is so lucky to have so many people love him!!

Well I am off to bed to watch Grey's and get some sleep!!

Super Duper Weekend!

So this week has been a week from hell. Probably the hardest week pregnancy and school wise. With Matt gone all week I was having my own little pity party each night. It was really hard on him because he couldn't do anything to help me.

Well this weekend has been great! Saturday I slept all day!! I am seriouse. I woke up at 7:30 because of the body pillow Melanie lent me!! Which worked like a champ. Tillyman loved being able to be propped up and not have me move around all night. After waking up I ate breakfast and then watched TV all morning. At 12:00 I went back to bed and slept till three. Matt came home from his haircut I took a shower and we headed to the grocery store. After returning from the store I put my pj's back on and then went back to bed. I fell asleep at 6 and didn't wake again till 6 in the morning. It was so nice. I really needed that.

Today was great!! I was so pretty outide and I got so much done. I cleaned the house a little, put away the four baskets of clothes I had since two weeks ago, washed my car, went to the dog park and ate a sweet lunch with the husband. (He went and got bread, lettuce and tomatoe because I craved a BLT!!) He's the best!!

This was a much needed weekend because of the week I had. Being a teacher is hard, but when you really care about your kids and job it is even harder. I want so much for these kids to pass and be successful but I can only do so much.

This week will be hard as well because I have a crazy conference on Tuesday and rentention meeting on Wednesday! I know though after a great weekend I am coming in Monday with happy thoughts and love for these kiddos! Also this weather only helps a million times over!!

sad but grateful..

So as I sit here and type tears stream down my face. Kinda funny because why there are tears is a silly reason. I will try and explain. Each year the Hurricanes give Wake County tickets for teacher appreciation night. Each year I put our name in the pot and we have won the tickets. This year I was so excited because it means a free date night with my husband who I don't get to see often.

Well this week has been hell on wheels. Our job has so many hoops to jump through and with this growing belly of mine it gets harder each day. (get the analagy in there..:)) So when we won the tickets Monday it was a light in the day. Well today I called Matt and he was so excited about the game. We were talking about who would be there and how our two tickets were right beside Nancy and Andrew and how much fun this would be. Well as I sat eating my dinner greatful that tomorrow was wed. and that thursday was one day away...the news brought sad news.

The Canes would be in Canda for a three day game stretch! My brain started twitching and then it dawned on me...the tickets weren't for this thursday but for next thursday. To any anybody else this wouldn't be a big deal but for us it was. Matt can't come home next thursday because he is taking a class and wont be home till Saturday.

So as I sit there comtemplating a way around this my heart just began to melt. Hormones took over. I was so sad because I knew how excited was for this game. I knew how excited I was. This SUCKS!! I really am sad about this and think it is because we don't get to spend a lot of time together I really wanted this date night.

This just brought on even more emotion about this stupid job he has. As the title states above I am greatful he has a job. I know this sounds selfish with all the people who don't have jobs and for all the folks that are struggling right now, but I can't help my feelings. I am so mad at this stupid job it makes my skin crawl. I just want to throw rocks at them. I am greatful he has a job. There are a lot worse things that could go on right now, I just wish he could find a job in Raleigh. I am hormonal and pissed.

So long story short...we aren't going to the game and now I am sad. This week sucks!!!