sense of normalcy

So today really put me to ease about this year. I was really nervous and scared about being chair. I lead the meetings and need to have my stuff together to present to the team. I am so scared that I am going to disappoint my team. I want them to be proud of me and I want them to know how much I care about them and want to do well for them. Being chair is going to be hard but I think I will do ok. I have an amazing team! I put way to much pressure on myself though which doesn't help.

Well today was a very productive day! I am really excited about the group of kids coming up and I am excited about this ocming year. I think since I ended the year so rocky I am glad to have stability. I am glad that I am starting this year at Millbrook but it is bittersweet because I know that it will probably be my last. I want so badly to do better this year but I am worried that life will get in the way. We shall see what happens!

Well this past weekend was great! Matt and I hung out like we were in college and just had fun together! Which we needed...we needed to be fun with each other since we have had so much tension. I am excited about the coming weekend because it will be the same as last!!

Pictures of the newly rearranged classrom coming soon!!

Manly Man's Dream

ok so since I have been married to my amazing husband he has been one of those men that like cars. He has always driven a camaro and loved it. He really couldn't live life without driving one. When we got married and were in debt up to our ears he sold it so we could put the payment towards our debt. He was a sad puppy for months. Well now his intrest has changed. Or I should say has increased because it has always been there.

Matt wants a motorcycle.

Our friends just bought one and he now wants one! I don't mind either way. I think it would be hot to see my hubs on a motorcycle. My mother has driven one for many many years so I am used to it. Now I would never get on it but he can have one all he wants. He keeps stewing about it. He wants to get one but right now wouldn't be the best time because he is in VA and he wouldn't be able to drive it as often as he would like. We are hoping around Christmas time he can get one. Now his mother is not very happy. She thinks he will kill himself. Now I know that it isn't the safest mode of transportation but I truely feel that if it happens it happens. I told Matt yesterday that I would see him in heaven and kick his butt for killing himself on a stupid motorcycle. We shall see if it ever happens....

life...

So as you all know we have been in a rollercoaster the past few months. Well I am ready to get off and I can't. This move is wearing hard on us and I hate it. Matt is tired and stressed and I can't do anything to fix it. I can't help him or give him words of wisdom. I want to comfort him and I can't. If this what it sorta feels like as a parent watching your children fall I can't imagine. I want him to stop hurting and I can't do anything to stop it. My heart hurts. I want him to feel better and I want to do whatever I can to stop his pain. This job for him sucks. They are treating him like crap and I just want to throw rocks at him. I want them to see the passion Matt has for his work and I want them to respect. They don't have any loyalty to him but he has tons of it for them. I hate this company. Now I know this sounds like a bitch session and we should be greatful for his job since he has one and be greatful for the fact that they want to help us move....bUT is it worth it? I am so mad right now I just want to kick their ass. I just want to scream!!! Please pray for Matt and for his comfort in this job. Please pray that his heart will find some ease and that his brain will sort through all that is going on. Please pray for our marriage...it is not easy being away from our spouse for a long period of time. Please pray that we can be each others strength and help each other through this time.

School starts tomorrow....this year will be a rollarcoaster! I am excited, scared, nervouse, anxiouse, inspired...as well as many other feelings.

no change....

So things here in our world haven't changed much. Matt's birthday is today!! This week sucks because he wont be home till late Saturday night. My mom is coming up though which is exciting!! I am really excited because I haven't seen her in awhile!!

Well school starts in two weeks!! I can't wait!! I am really really really excited about this school year. It has been a rollar coaster which is what makes this year great!! I can't wait to get started and make this year so much better then last!!!

Well other then that nothing new has happened...we went visit family and friends and it was great!! We spent some time with great friends and it was a blast. We found out that my friends principal is my old principal from elementary school!! It is such a small world!!!

off to eat some no bake cookies and pizza...comfort food!!