Resolutions Stink!!

So I think from my title that resolutions stink!! I really don't see the point in them. In my 24 years of life I have never kept one stinkin one!! I know that it is all because of me....but they just don't seem to make sense to me. I always feel bad when I don't keep one or I let one fizzle out.

Well this year I am not making a resolution. I am making a "What can I do for Elizabeth?" list. I know that sounds a little selfish...but here is why I want a list like this. I want to list all the things that I feel I have let slip and things I have always wanted to do for myself and write them down. This list I see in my head all the time but never really execute. I want to do things this year that help me. Make me a better wife, (mother in June), Christian, friend, teacher, daughter, sister, steward of our money, and anything else that might roll along. This is a huge task since all those except the mother one cause I haven't gotten there yet I am really slacking it. I think I do all those half way. I want to find one or two things and really work on them. I don't just want this for me I want this for our baby. The hard part for me...if you know me you will nod your head....I do way to much...I spread myself to thin. This year my hope is that I will work on one or two things.

What I want to work on this year is becoming a better Christian. Now if you look back this is an ongoing battle. With the uprooting that was going to happen last year we let things fizzle out. This year I have a reason to get my butt into gear. I want our son or daughter to grow up in a church surrounded by people that can lead him or her through a life of Christianity. Raleigh I feel is a hard place to find a church because there are so many...and you can really only get a feel of a church on Sundays. I am going to make the effort this year, and my hope is that by the time this little one is born, we will have declared ourselves a member of a church. That isn't a lot of time but even if I am working towards that membership I will have felt successful! This also includes my relationship with God. This is a personal one that I struggle with all the time. My hope is as we grow in a church family, my relationship will grow stronger.

The second thing I want to work on this year is becoming a better wife to my husband. Now this one also includes becoming a better steward of our money. My husband writes the checks for the bills but we talk alot about our money. I want to help in the effort to save and be frugal with our money. From what I hear, little ones cost a alot :)! I want us to feel the normal stress of money not overly stressed because I spend way to much. I have come to terms with me not staying home with bean, but that means we will spend daycare money. I want to help Matt in saving and I want us to feel that we are making a difference with our money. In our history Matt and I have lived pretty comfortably. We def. enjoy being able to go out and have those luxuries in life. I know when the baby comes some of that will cut down but by me working, we still have a little rainy day fund. As far as being a better wife, I know comes from the previous paragraph. My relationship with God needs to be stronger so my relationship with Matt is stronger. There are a lot of things I need to work on with us. He is selfless...I am not....he is caring...I can be mean....he is loving....I forget his love language...he takes care of me...I take his care with no return. This could go on but as you can see I have a lot to work on.

The third thing I want to work on is becoming a better friend. I feel that in this areas I am ok. I could do better which is my hope. I have a friend who I think is the friend of all friends. She is my role model. She does things not because of what others think of her but because she genuinely enjoys doing those things for others. I need to work on that. I need to keep in touch with people, I need to call them and let them know I am thinking about them. I need to show my friendship more to people. We get so busy and that is what I blame it on but she does it.

These are my three self helps this year. I may add to this list if I start to do well with some of these, and I may work on some of these in 2010. I really hope in my heart that I can work on these. This is for nobody else but me. This is for my well being nobody elses. I want to help myself so I can be more confident in my daily life. If I fail, I am human but hope that this will continue on till I become successful!